An Old Journal by Yaya

6/1/06

This is the month I’ve been waiting for. I haven’t written in so long I don’t know where to start. So my fast is over on June 18th and I am excited because I have learned to be content with myself whether alone or with someone. What specifically have I learned during this fast? I’m glad you asked:

1) Nothing is ever FINAL, only God’s word is final. What He says is what will be. No matter the situation. If it looks bleek, it’s not final. If all seems well it can be pulled out from under you….and will you still continue to trust God when it turns from good to bad. What God said dispels any argument or rebutle.

2) You have truly mastered or overcome your vices when you can look them in the face and say NO to them. If you are just hiding out from the temptations that once mastered you, you are fooling yourself because one day you will have to face them again and then what are you going to do.

3) You have to know WHY you are saying NO to certain things. If you are just going off of what sounds good it isn’t deeply embedded in your heart and therefore you will easily be swayed from your stance. Know why you have boundaries and limits in place, are they there to keep you sane, grounded, safe?

4) Other people will not always understand why you do what you do. Even if they say they totally understand, they don’t. Your decisions are between you and God. People will say they agree with you but then subtly try to change your mind. Their goal is to stick around and wait for a weak point to bring up their view once again.
Not everyone is meant to understand what God has given YOU to do.

5) Patience, patience, patience. I can’t say it enough. If you make a decision to pray that God’s will be done in you life, you must wait on Him. The answer, direction, and guidance WILL come but you must be willing to search Him out. Otherwise you are just doing what sounds good, feels good or what you wanna do.
“for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure”
(Phil 2:13 NKJV)
Also June is the middle of this year 2006, the Year of Release. It’s been 7 years since God began to manifest many things to me and I have heard too many prophecies about this year to count. God revealed to me in October of 2005 that from then thru this year He would bring to pass ALL that He has promised me. I am writing this down now so that when it happens you can’t say that I made it up or was hearing things. When Miles Monroe visited our church this year in January, God was showing me this year is when the diligent would be rewarded. In his message he prophecied that I would be a success in the thing that God had given me to do. This he spoke to the entire congregation but it so agreed with my Spirit. I have noticed that God had to get me out of my own way of doing things. I work part-time now and at first I thought that was for me to work on my businesses but then I realized I had to get quiet before God to hear His voice more clearly. I am a mentor at Compton High which helped me to be more giving and selfless. Young people today need someone to listen and coach them into leading prosperous God honoring lives. I didn’t realize how selfish I was before and still am to a certain degree, but God gave me a greater heart for other people. The Elevate Your Game Program was a spring board for my business group to start our own mentoring program called HEART. We only had 3 classes but now that we stepped out and started we know that we CAN do anything with Christ leading us. I am so excited for this month of June, I see it as the pinnacle of 2006….the height of the year. This 1st half of the year has been absolutely crazy and just utterly ridiculous. So many things tried to go awry, tried to fall apart, and tried to bring chaos. I feel like everything that was happening was trying to force me to give up on God and His promises. We cannot walk by sight by no means. We must continually walk by faith. Faith in God’s promises.

“So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, But it shall accomplish what I please, And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.” (Isaiah 55:11 NKJV)

“This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.” (Joshua 1:8)